Tuesday, July 8, 2014


I'm so excited we are moving into a 3br apartment - finally, more space!  We plan to be here a few years so while we won't be doing MAJOR renovations to it, we'll be redoing the kitchen and painting to make it our own. 

PLUS the best part is Little Man will finally have his own room - now let's just hope he sleeps in it!

When you walk into the apartment you are in a small square foyer which will become our "dining area".  To the right is the kitchen, which will be completely gutted.  Right now Little Man discovered he can talk to people as they are passing by ....

Next up you have the living room ... the floors are badly stained so no amount of sanding will save them.  We'll just put carpet down.  The rooms are slightly smaller that what we currently have so we may have to reconfigure our couch, which thankfully is a sectional.

Checking out the long hall leading down to the bedrooms.

Unfortunately our bedroom and LM's do NOT have closests in them.  So Hubs will be building a cloest for LM.  We each get one of the hall closests and the first will be a coat closet.

Again - alot smaller.  Our hopes of a King Size bed have most likely gone out the window.  But we'll make due. 

Next up is LM's room ... I honestly can't wait to get my hands on his room the most!  He has been in our room since he came home from the hospital so this will be the first chance I get to truly decorate a little boys room!  Naturally daddy wants a sports theme room.  Fine by me - it will just have to be equal football and baseball!

Bathroom is nothing exciting.  We'll just paint and chaulk to spruce things up.

Last but not least - Big Sisters room!  This was an add on to the apartment, the took over a storage room from the basement.  The floor needs to be properly reinforced and then a rug put down.  We need to figure out bedroom furniture (we had promised her a new set, only now the SIZE of it may change after actually seeing the room).  I'm hoping we can keep one side a closet and make the other a desk/make up area.

Friday, June 27, 2014


I feel like some days all I do is wish for something someone else has.  I bumped into a co-worker today (she's on a different floor from me) who was pg when I was pg with MM.  She's pregnant.  :(  Yes I wished it were me.  I hated that it wasn't me - at least "as well". 

Summer has begun and school is out - I'm wishing I had gone into teaching so I could be home with my kids right now.  I absolutely LOVE summer and wish I were able to spend long glorious days at the pool just enjoying them both.  Plus it doesn't help that these days MM continually asks "leaving me?" when I drop him at the sitter.  Talk about dagger in the heart.

But being envious of others is something we all do - even if we don't admit it out loud.  Changing it would be easy if I could just get pregnant by snapping my fingers, like some can.  And quitting my job.  Both would give me what I want most - but at what cost?

Its so hard to play the balancing act of working mom.  If i'm home, I'd rather be at work.  If I'm at work, I'd rather be home.  I'm envious (there's that word again) of those who have jobs that allow them to work from home and I guess most importantly, do what they love the most.

In the meantime, I need to make the effort required to have QUALITY time on the weekends and evenings.

Monday, June 16, 2014

Crossing off the Bucket List - Feed the ducks.

And it begins .. it wasn't a biggie (and I need to remember to sit down and try to plan out some of the biggies) but it was something.  The weekend was absolutely perfect weatherwise so on Saturday we took advantage of it and took a ride to a nearby pond to feed the ducks.

I'll add pictures later because it was hard managing MM and the ducks/geese AND taking pictures.

MM had absolutely the BEST time.  Early on in our walk we came across a momma duck and her babies.  MM would throw the bread and say "here momma, for you and babies" "here momma".  He may be a hand full at times but lately he has been showing this sweeter side more and more often.

H is the best big sister and helped me by standing near MM when feeding the ducks - for some reason my jogger decided to have a mind of its own and kept rolling away even with the breaks on.

MM was in heaven as we walked around the pond constantly on the hunt for more ducks to feed.  This momma wasn't too happy when we came across the geese.  They scare the bejeezus out of me and are so damn fast.  No matter how we tried to throw the bread in the opposite direction, they continued to come at us and FAST!

Friday, June 6, 2014

Summer Summer TIME!

(title said to the tune of Will Smith's song)

Its my most favorite time of the year.  Yes I love Christmas time ALOT but I live for the warm weather.  I only wish I didn't have to work so I could truly enjoy it and my kids more.

Last year I found a "Summer Bucket List" (as did most people) and I was so excited!  How in the world did I NOT think of this myself *smackhead*.

Having such an age difference between my kids means having to balance what we do.  Some for the big, some for the little.  Although I will admit that I do feel guilty doing stuff like this because I don't want Big to thing she missed out on something.  Kinda like how I feel with Elf on the Shelf (in my defense they didn't have that 14 years ago!)

Truth be told we are having a bit of a rocky time in our family right now - I guess teen years are fully setting in.  I'm truly having one of those - I feel like a crappy mom - stages right now.  So while I deal with the riff happening in our daily life I'm trying to also plan things that will hopefully bring us back together as a family. 

My big is about to start high school and I'm fully aware that this could be one of the last summers I can torture her with family activities.  I look at her and I wonder where the time has gone.  I wonder where I could have done better, where I could have stepped back, where I could have stepped in.  I don't know how to fix things.  Therein lies the problem - as a mom we think or want to fix everything.  I second guess all my decisions and worry like hell about them.  Par for the course huh?

Thursday, January 16, 2014

2014 Reading

Well for the last two year I've tried to reach 50 books and while I did get closer this past year I didn't reach my goal.  That is kinda disappointing so instead of setting a goal I'm just going to try and read as much as I can ..... hopefully this year I WILL reach my previous 50 books goal only because it was late in the year last year when I started going back to the library.  That and the fact that I finally figured out ebooks should be a big help.

If you have any suggestions, I'd love to hear them!

Books Read
1.  Christmas at Carrington's by Alexandra Brown
2.  Divergent Series (Book 1) - Veronica Roth
3.  Disconnected - Jennifer Weiner
4.  Whiskey Beach - Nora Robets
5.  Tonight and always - Nora Robets
6.  Insurgent - Veronica Roth
7.  Balancing it all - Candace Cameron Bure
8.  Shirley Jones Autobiography
9.  Divergent Series (Book 2 - Insurgent) - Veronica Roth
10.  Divergent Series (Book 3 - Allegiant) - Veronica Roth
11.  Tempting Fate - Jane Green
12.  Unlucky 13 - James Patterson
13.  Power Play - Danielle Steel
14.  When they first met - Debbie Macomber

Currently Reading

Women Living Well - Courtney Joseph
Heaven is for Real

Reading on the side

Growing Up Duggar
Boundaries with Teens - Dr. John Townsend
Have a new Teenager by Friday - Dr. Kevin Leman
Fighting For Your Marriage by Howard Markman

Up Next

Starting Next - Debbie Macomber
The Midwife of Hope River - Patricia Harman
The Vow - Kim Carpenter
Private Games - James Patterson
NYPD Red - James Patterson
Another Piece of my heart - Jane Green

Mothers and Other Liars by Amy Bourret
Imperfect, An Improbable Life by Jim Abbott.
The Peach Keeper by Sarah Addison Allen
Always Something There to Remind Me by Beth Harbison.
The Middle Place by Kelly Corrigan
The Divorce Party - Laura Dave
The First Husband - Laura Dave

The Four Agreements - Don Miguel Ruiz
The Go Giver - Bob Burg
Eat That Frog - Brian Tracy
Good to Great - Jim Collins
Exception Service, Exceptional Profit - Leonardo Inghilleri
Good Strategy Bad Strategy - Richard Rumelt

Thursday, November 21, 2013


For about 3 years now I've have followed Kelle Hampton's blog - Enjoying The Small Things and last month as I was reading I came across this post about an amazing woman.  It was in her writing as a guest blogger that I first learned of Reece's Rainbow a non-profit organization that finds families for international orphans with Down Syndrome and other disabilities.

I have to say I was drawn in immediately.  Having a child with special needs is a conversation hubs and I have had before.  During my pg with buddy boy, which started out as a twin pregnancy we were faced with the potential to make a decision.  Baby B was much smaller than Baby A so we were sent for a CVS test, which is basically an early amnio.  B could have just implanted late thus explaining the size difference.  OR there could be a medical issue present.  We did our reserach and knew we could be faced with the possiblity of reducing the pregnancy.  Depending on what B "had" it could affect A, thus losing both babies.  Our dr prepared us for different scenarios and we knew what we could and couldn't handle.  I guess maybe this was prep work for what may come down the road. 

You see right now we have had talks about expanding to add another baby to our family.  Since coming across the RR site I've wondered if this was God's way to saying an addition could/should happen in another way aside from birth by me.

While skimming the site I fell in LOVE with one little boy.  No matter what I do I think about him constantly and find myself going back to the site just to stare at him.

Lo and behold today someone posted his pic on a FB page saying "someone please adopt this adorable little boy!".  After some  back and forth emails with various different people I've learned that HE may not be in the cards for us, but this little angel has opened up my world in such a short time.  My head is exploding with the knowledge I've gained and everything I need to read over.

I'm not saying adoption will 100% be in our future - man if money were no object I'd adopt as many as I could - but at least my eyes are opened to the possiblity.  As well as another place to add our "christmas thanks" money as a donation.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Smiles & Sleeping

Its amazing how a smile from my little man can totally make my day.  He was up a few times in the middle of the night so needless to say I wasn't a happy camper this morning.  More like a bear covers it.  At 6:30am he was up and ready to go but also whiny.  Man if there is one thing that just sends shivers down my back is whining.  And at 6:30 AM no less??  Eventually he fell back to sleep and my alarm went off. Naturally HE was still asleep but at least it gave me time to get dressed & ready without him underfoot.  I am not a morning person and having him underfoot can easily send this off in a bad direction.

Once everything was ready to go but him I laid in bed next to him to wakey.  He rolled over, gave me truly the best smile and put his arm tightly around my neck.  Its moments like that I'm reminded to not sweat the small stuff.  To enjoy and seek out these moments for they won't be little people for long.